our stories - so different, so alike
My heart is breaking as I visit your precious daughter's site. Becca is so beautiful! I read your reflection about 10 years passing and in many ways, it helped me, yet it shows me this journey is one with many twists and turns, even after time has gone on. Time - what is it beyond this earth?
Then, as I scrolled down, I saw the poem, The Chord. Someone sent that to me a year ago. It was someone who lost a daughter that was in her 20's.
Then, I got to the story of that horrible day in your life and my heart came to my throat, and my stomach feels that exact, same sick feeling. . . We lost our 18 year old son to the same thing just ove a year ago. It was just five days after his birthday, two months before his graduation. The hospital story just brought back so much of the same gut-wrenching vivid memories. Our son, Jake, had not been feeling well for a couple days, but nothing that he would let me bother with. He got so sick in the middle of a snow storm and was gone withing an hour and a half of the ambulance's struggle to get to our home, work to revive him in our own living room, and then to the hospital. Earlier that evening, we thought he had the same flu his older brother had just a few days earlier.
I still can't even grasp this reality. So much of what you have said is so much like my feelings, yet your daughter . . . Such a short time to have her! She is so precious and beautiful. Thank you for sharing your story and your deep feelings of love for her, as well as your agonizing memories. I will hold you and Becca in my heart forever more, now that I know her!
Peace be with you. Close